I’ve mentioned before how I have what my parents have deemed “Salad Dressing Syndrome.” Basically, I have difficulty making decisions, including which salad dressing I want. So, instead, I pour them all on for a little taste of everything.
Unfortunately, with the big decisions like where do I want to go to college, I haven’t yet found a way to overcome the whole space-time continuum. So I am forced to make decisions.
When I finally decided on Northeastern–a school that I am immensely happy at–I cried. Rather than feeling thrilled at the idea that I was starting off on some new, wild adventure, I felt robbed of all the potential lives I could have lived had I gone down some other path.
With every decision I make, every fork in the road, I have to choose one path. And as I move down the road, I make more decisions. There’s only one ultimate route I can take through my mess of a exponentially growing tree of potential. And that makes me sad.
Let it be noted, however, that I do happen to luurrvv my current place. I just wish I could live several lives at once 🙂
So here is a (likely incomplete) compilation of all the things I shouldawouldacoulda done had I picked some different paths:
- Continued dance
- Learned the piano
- Learned French before puberty so I could be fluent in it
- Gone to school at the University of Kent
- Taken photography in high school
- Not taken so many APs in high school (and had a bit more fun!)
- Had a long term boyfriend
- Taken a year off from school
- Volunteered abroad
- Been religious
- Stayed vegetarian
- Gone to yoga on a regular basis
- Kept a diligent journal
- Taken more photographs
- Not hit my eye in Supercuts haha
- Biked with my mom
- Learned to cook
- Taken an etiquette class
- Gotten my drivers license at 16 like a normal person
- Learned to surf
- Ridden horses
- Learned more about cars
- Continued painting
In a way this list is kind of depressing because it represents all my shouldawouldacouldas, but it’s also inspiring because it’s a reminder that I have to do things when I have the opportunity. Many of these things I haven’t missed the window for. Be sure to look out for them on future Bucket Lists!